This week, I mourn the loss of the fur being who supported me through my first sixteen years of adult life.
The end came sooner than expected, and I am unspeakably sad.
But Pepi now dreams of a world without pain, of eternal golden orbs and endless grassy meadows…
He is at peace.
Dear Pepi RIP
1 June 1996 – 26 September 2012
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Out of respect for Pepi, there will be no new posts until further notice.
Instead, please visit the boy with a hat.
While you’re there, download his free eBook, 50 Tales.
They are beautiful, whimsical, sometimes naughty, often funny little vignettes of life, and are sure to make you glad to be alive.
Alarna Rose Gray 
I am so sorry Alarna. Sending hugs and love.
Just what was needed, Boomie. Thanks so much 🙂
I am sorry to hear that. I am sure you have memories to cherish.
With love,
-Naima.
Yes, there are many great memories to cherish. Thanks so much for your love and support, Naima 🙂
Always welcome =)
-Naima.
I am so sorry Alarna! We lost our dog 4 years ago, but now we have Roxy!
Thanks so much, Susie – there’s nothing quite like the pitter patter of tiny paws, is there? Roxy seems such a wonderful, happy little dog, too 🙂
I’m so sorry Alarna… Pepi has moved on to make another girl’s life special! But he will always stay in your heart…
Loads of hugs,
Sumithra.
That’s such a beautiful thing you said, Sumithra! Thank you. I will treasure that. Hugs to you 🙂
Hi Alarna. I’m so sorry to hear this news. Sending you a lot of positive energy…
Thanks so much, Rita! I wasn’t able to reply coherently before today, but I received your warmth in waves, and am comforted… 🙂
Dear Alarna Rose,
It hurts so much to lose those precious beings who love us unconditionally.
I’m so sad for you, and know from my own grief how much you must be hurting, I wish I could comfort you.
Whenever one of our dogs died, we received a message from them, with one, the scent of lavender which filled the house, and then we realised we had sent lavender with him into the vet, So I feel that their loving consciousness stays with you, and their love is never ending. Love doesn’t disappear. And it’s still so hard not to see their darling faces..
Bless you,bless you
Dear Valerie,
I’m so far unable to read your comment (let alone reply!) without weeping. Thank you so very much. You comfort me beyond measure.
Such a beautiful message, the lavendar, and the never ending love…
Just yesterday I was remembering the way Pepi would waggle his head and beckon me to ‘come on, already’. He was such a positive, energetic and forward thinking dog…it was like he was telling me ‘come on, I’m still here, let’s get on with it’. So, I guess that’s what I have to try and do 🙂
Much love to you, Valerie xo
Dear, dear Alarna Rose,
I was so relieved to see your name and find your message. I’ve been worried abut you.
It’s still early days and I know you’ll be feeling raw – after all, for all those years you had nothing but unconditional love , and of course you miss it, but know too that it is still there. One of the hard things is feeling you haven’t got them to love, but there’s nothing that says we have to stop loving them. I still greet my darling pussy cat every time I open my computer and see her there looking at me ( My first post was Goodbye Cat)
I’ve spent the day with a friend who’s just lost her sixteen year old cat.
She says she feels so guilty about grieving like this , she was only a cat. I say to her , she wasn’t only a cat, she was the most precious creature in the world to you, and you to her.
I know that’s not how you feel, you know that Pepi was a very special consciousness, and you were and are a gift to each other . I hope you’re beginning to get your balance back again. and I’m thinking of you both with love,
Somehow I feel very close to you XXX
Dearest Valerie,
Thank you so so much for your comforting words. I feel strangely close to you, too – you’re a precious soul and blogging friend, and it means a great deal to read your thoughtful messages.
I’ve been surprised what a wreck I’ve been, and to be honest, it has felt at little self-indulgent. But I know what he meant to me, and vice versa, and it just isn’t something one can move on from quickly. Thank you for giving me permission to mourn for him 🙂
A few days seem like forever in the blogging world, but not so in the real one. And Pepi, for sure, would have appreciated my switching the computer off for him. So that is what I did.
Now that a week has passed, and I have put away his bed, I’ll be slowly coming back. And am very much looking forward to doing some reading of my favourite people 😉
Thank you so very much for your love and kindness xox
You’re lovely. Yes, you’ve put away his bed… but I do tend to leave things around like their saucer or toys, and just let them go slowly, as and when I’m ready… I actually found it comforting to see little reminders of them around the place , but it may be different for you.
You’re right about the difference in blogging time and the real time… strange…X
So sorry to hear of your loss. Sending you warmth and peace during this time.
Thanks so much for your thoughts and warmth, Liz – I am greatly comforted 🙂
Oh no! I am terribly sorry about this. My thoughts and warm wishes are with you. Take comfort in the fact he is still with you, watching over you, still your loyal friend.
It helps to be reminded that they are still with us in spirit, even when they are gone. Thanks so much for your kind words 🙂
Alarna, I am so sorry to hear about Pepi. Yes he will be taken care of and you know he is in a good place, but let us mourn in memories of all the joy he brought you. Love to you.
Joy is the word. He had such zest for life and now, as much as anything, I miss the way he’d brighten up the world! Thank you for the love and empathy 🙂
This is sad, it really is. What a lovely post though – & photo. 16 YEARS of your life. Wow. Just bless him…
Oh, yes – BLESS HIM! For bringing such unconditional love and joy into my world, for so long. Thank you for your kind words 🙂
So sad to hear this news from you, Alarna! May his soul rest in peace.
Rahul
I believe he is at peace. Though I’m not sure he’d be resting… that just wasn’t his style 😉 Thanks for your love, Rahul. I’m on my way back, promise 🙂
You’re most welcome, dear! 🙂
Rahul
I am so sorry, Alarna. I know exactly what you’re going through. Losing a dog is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. They are so so close to our hearts, in ways humans can almost never be. I’m thinking of you ❤
You are so right about that…there’s something in the way creatures love us that is unsurpassed. I know I didn’t deserve half the love he gave. Thank you so much for your words, and thoughts. xo
I am sorry Alarna. Thinking of you, wishing you comfort and sending hugs.
Thanks Coleen, I am greatly comforted. Your post has also been with me a lot this week, as my routines changed suddenly and immeasurably. But, thankfully, I had time to appreciate each moment before he left…
Feeling so sad…Try to be calm dear ..God Bless you and all !
Thank so much – there is a calm amidst the sadness… 🙂
How very sad. I’m sad for your suffering and loss. How wonderful that you had Pepi while you did.
Thank you for your kindness. Yes, it’s amazing how the years fly past. The time we had will always be cherished 🙂
Oh, Alarna, I’m so, so sorry. I know how dear and special Pepi was to you, the loyalist of friends. I’m so glad you wrote the book about Pepi, and he will live on and many others will fall in love with Pepi, too. So sad. Sending huge hugs to you. Yes, take some time off to mourn and publish your book. I’m looking forward to it even more than I already was. XO
I really appreciate your thoughts and hugs, Lynn 🙂
Pepi was special, and loyal, and full of so much joy for such a small creature. As one person said to me – ‘So much personality in such a small package!’
I look forward to sharing his joy with the world 🙂
(BTW, I see that it’s a big week for you, too! A massive congratulations, and I’ll be over to your corner soon…) xo
I’m very sorry for your loss – our furry friends really do hold a very special place in our hearts.
Thanks so much, and you’re right there. No-one else can quite fill that space…
Awwww. Sorry to hear about your Pepi. Hugs.
Hey, thanks so much 🙂
Sorry for your loss. There is no friend like a good canine.
So very true – they’re not just man’s best friend 😉 Thank you for your thought…
Rest in peace Pepi.
Hugs to you.
I take those, and give them in return.
Thank you! A rare and welcome gift (as is your poetry, too, by the way…) 🙂
Hugs. 😦
Thanks Nina – just what today needed 🙂
I am so sorry. My heart goes out to you, Alarna.
Thanks so much, Sylver. I’m working through it 🙂
Hi Alarna,
I’m sorry to hear that. Losing a friend like that is never easy. I’ve lost my Kona almost a year ago (she was still a kitten), and still thinking about her and her kind ways. Let’s hope they are in a better place now.
Thanks, Yulia…their little souls are so pure. I’m sure if there is such a place, they are together, and getting up to mischief. Pepi grew up with a cat, and loved him to bits…
sorry to hear about Pepi. Hope you are well.
Oh, thank you! He will always be missed, but I am doing much better… 🙂
I am so so so so so sorry 😦 I wish I’d read this earlier. My heart goes out to you and Pepi. If you need to talk, I’m here. aw 😦
Thanks so much, Nicole! It is very sad. But I guess I was grieving him before he even left, with his dementia. At least now he’s no longer suffering… xx
My dearest Alarna, I grieve Pepi today even though I did not know him then… I know you have moved to a new place and have honored him with your wonderful books with his name. Please know that Pepi is so happy as he awaits you to hold him & love him forever. xxxx I love you!!!
My dear Rain – I’m very touched. I know that you understand the importance the little fur creature had in my life… I wish you could have met him! Thank you for all you’ve done to help me honour his memory 🙂 Much love xx